I don’t know if i can still post this on 9th October 2011, but i will try.
What’s so special about 9th October 2011? Right. It’s the one year anniversary of living in Singapore. Well not the whole round year as I had some trips back to hometown. But you get the idea. Ah, where to start. I was planning to post a very long picture post about singapore, but i didn’t manage to get around enough decent images. :< Days were busy and crazy and stress-y that i don’t even have the time to think properly. So enough with the rants, and let’s reminisce.
Last year i knew nothing (read; null) about Singapore, about living abroad, and living independently. I remember this piece of advice that strengthens me when i was about to break down every time i feel life is hard.
“When people goes overseas for studying, they might assume that they will have a good time, and experience something exciting. It’s all a part of it. But in the reality, how many of them that cries in the middle of night, missing their families, friends, the familiar hometown. Living alone in other people’s country is harsh. You should really fits in quickly, and if you don’t, you get sick of living there. And when you don’t enjoy where you’re staying, you cannot possibly do anything well..Try your best and don’t give up too quick. “
That was quoted from one of my post one year ago, by a teacher.
I know life is never going to be the same again when i decided to come here and study. I had the easy life so to speak, of going to school and graduated ‘normally’. Never in my wildest dream I was to study abroad in Singapore. So when the time had come for me to set sail, I was too excited to come here that i forgot to feel sad or unhappy of leaving behind my lifestyle. Truthfully, i didn’t left my past behind me. I simply created a new fresh chapter with a brand new ink. After some time, I passed the days here in Singapore in an…carefree manner. I liked it here, whether it’s the unfriendly people i sometimes encounter, or things that just decided to go the wrong direction.Here I learn of meeting new friends, be closer with another friends, and then silently distancing, arguing with your friends or even yourself. Hanging around Orchard Road and window shops.
And there were also times when i thought of “Did I made a mistake by coming here?” “Why am I here?” “I really want to go back home and forget I ever came here.” and “I am all alone.” It is true. I am all alone. Despite all the friends, cousins i have in singapore, i am all alone. Alone in making decisions, alone in questioning myself, alone in clouds of doubts and insecurities. But i didn’t made the wrong choice of coming here. If people were to speak of I made the wrong choice, they never know how much i learnt from living here. And if they were to know how was I one year ago and the me now, well I guess they might change their perspective a little bit. The sense of independence forced us; international students to grow strong and solid.
I’ve got used to Singapore. I hope the next year, i can post more fun things for the second anniversary. Until then, I MADE THE FIRST YEAR SAFE AND SOUND! A BIG ROUND OF APPLAUSE, PLEASE! :D
excuse the camwhore. too sleepy to write anything else. and tomorrow is the off day. see you guys and have a bloody monday! :D
-one round year to go, baby!