Fades

Hello there, Happy belated easter for you who celebrates, and it’s April! :)

I’ve been off and about a little bit during the easter holiday (in which I’ve only one week left now, class resumes next week). I went to Manchester, Newcastle, Edinburgh, and London for 10 days, and in between I was so lucky to be able to watch two of The Script’s concert. So yes, today I feel like I want to write a bit about the gigs and how I feel about it.

Let’s be honest, I’m a massive The Script fan, and a massive Jason Mraz fan. I’ve been since I was in ump-teen age and I follow their journey throughout. Truthfully,back in the days when you are living in a city where presumably no concert of any artist their scale is ever going to be held in, there’s nothing much to fangirl about. So when I move to Singapore to study, everything is new and exciting, you get bands artists celebrities; you name it; coming to the town one at a time. So I started to follow concerts and gigs in the city and become very much familiar with queueing for front row, meeting new friends with minds (and idols) alike, and all that post concert withdrawal stuff. My first concert was The Script in Fort Canning Park back in 2011, where I went alone and seriously enjoyed myself. It was the lads’ second album, and they weren’t as famous as they are with only few songs stuck in public’s head. But there you go, it was a pretty much an unforgettable first experience and the euphoria rang through for a week or so.

Skip to now, where I’m in UK to further up my study, there is even more possibilities of gigs, arenas, stadiums, showcases, or namely TV show to participate in. Thus when The Script had their UK arena tour, I know I can manage to watch not just one show. And so I did. I basked in the glory of watching my favorite Irish band pretty up close twice. I caught them in Manchester, queued from 10.30 AM to 6 PM with cold bum and it was St. Paddy’s Day as well! Second was in London, purposely got the sitting seats because we arrived late from Newcastle. Overall; was it amazing? Yes. Was the crowd fun? Undoubtedly. How was the queueing period? Same old pain in the ass. Did I had post concert synd? Oh dear yes.

Then?

For me, every song holds memories. It struck me when I was missing something and I hear the particular song, all the nostalgia feeling rushed back like waves of emotions. It felt like I was walking down the same road 2 years ago. A very odd and real deja-vu. But then by now, I have listened to The Script’s album over and over and over again, without realising how it unconsciously saturated the memories it held for me. This, only until recently I discovered when I watch the concert footages I took. It’s just so clear where the line disconnected. Even if I sing along to every word of the songs when I played it on iTunes, I am now dying to get back all the feeling that was there when I listened to Nothing, The Man Who Can’t Be Moved, and even lot of other songs from other artists. Because when I hear those songs that I loved so much that I “over-listened”, there were no longer any attachments or memories in it. There was only a vague fragments of how; when; where did I feel so good listening to this song.. It’s just really hard to picture the whole thing back again.Now, it’s just a teenie bit of sadness. Not that I no longer love the songs, I will still go to their gig, buy their albums, and continue being a loyal fan, but wouldn’t it be just great if we can forever retain the memories in a song?

Maybe there’s some kind of explanation behind this. Or I’m just being silly.

 

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Ps: It was really hard deciding to continue writing this post because I was just not sure if you’ll get what I mean.. but whatever. 

 

 

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My Lady Cave

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Boom there goes my face for ya.
Lady Cave is a term I learnt from a random Instagram comment to call your room. Just priceless.
Anyway it was a great fun pimping up my room here and alas!! My lady cave is now suited to my liking lol. I haven’t got my own room for like 6 or 7 years? (Always sleeps with Mum back home) So I think I’m just so excited to do things like this yikes.
A lot of stuffs from the room are from Amazon actually.
For example; the silly lady sign on the first picture is bought off this store. Brilliant stuffs. Never fails to make me smile every time i see it. Then the garland and white voile curtain which is only 5 pounds, great bargain one would say? And the fairy lights! All from the magical land of Amazon :D
I feel like my wall could use a little decoration on it, so I printed out my Quote of The Days doodle (this post) through a company called Inkifi. Super impressed by the quality of the printings and decided to print out some of my personal Instagram pictures to hang as well. Now my friends and dogs can watch me sleep every night. <3
Tuesday is so very peaceful today and thus this post came up. Oh yeah quiz time; does anybody know what song is the writings on my wall from? :p
That’s about all. Hope you enjoyed it and tell me what you lots think? :D
Bye bye! xx

Peacetime Resistance

Feeling the comfort of eyes is your sole intention
We all wanna be understood unconditionally
But you have to realize that a viewer needs distance
And the moment your wall melts down the inside is outside

Maybe way back in the past, when people were different
Shortening bonds made them last
Now we emphasize our difference
We have been enrolled one by one for peacetime resistance
And we’re fighting our battles alone

We’ve got four eyes, so why yearn for one perspective?
We’ve got colours with shades erased when blended
We’ve got four eyes, so why yearn for one perspective?
We’ve got colours, but they disappear when blended

Kings of Convenience

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Buxton, Derbyshire 

Getting overwhelmed by the pace of life recently. Almost two months residing in the UK, finally getting used to things and weather.. God knows why my sinusitis miraculously managed to survive through thick snow and wind here. Uni has been great and homework is (finally) coming into my life again after years. Not sure whether to feel excited or not about that.

Life here is peaceful, serene, and tranquil. The total opposite of bustling Singapore. In my town there’s no grandeur shopping mall or a commercial cinema. Probably explains why it’s very quiet here. If feeling a little bit town-ish that day, we need to ride train or bus to the neighboring town and spend a whole day there. Saying I don’t miss the metropolitan life in Singapore would be a total BS, considering friends and everything familiar is scattered within distance there. Homesick is inevitable for us international students. 7 hours of time difference doesn’t make things easier too.

But then again, time makes things goes by. Missing things isn’t a bad thing. It just serves as a reminder that you had a great time back there. Thus I’m striving to be grateful thoroughly of what I have now. It all starts with the little things, really. I love how people are so friendly in my town. I love my University. I love the cakes here! I love jacket potatoes and beans. I love tea now, it’s getting to me so bad I have to drink a cuppa everyday. I love charity shoppings, so cheap to the point I can’t believe it. I love the fact I have my own room now, which I crazy decorated with stuffs. I love looking at caucasian toddlers everywhere. I love the parks and gardens here. I love the weather, I honestly don’t miss the scorching hot tropical sun so much. I love how I live in such close proximity to big towns where all the happenings happened. So many things I love in UK, but I suppose it’s still too early to say I love UK in whole. We’ll keep that for future reference. :’)

And yeah, I’ve been adjusting, and I still am adjusting. I bet there’s still so many things to discover in near days, so I’ll try my best to keep this space alive. Though it’s not easy in so many circumstances.. (eep excuses here we go)

Talk to you loves soon. x :)

Thank The Old, Greet The New

It’s the tip of 2012, and here we are evaluating and rewinding back what this year has done and brought to us. 366 days have passed so very quickly that sometimes catching up with daily happenings in life is too much of a task.. You know how if you live each day with such great friends and happy thoughts the time passed in a flash? Me think so too.

Now that the fireworks and my blackberry broadcast messages are competing against each other, I would like to try to sum up what 2012 was about for moi.

Incredibly Grateful. is probably the most apt phrase to begin with the journey to the awesomeness of 2012. To start off, I am on my happiest days of my life right now. I’m as content as I can be, without anything to worry about (except for the slight setback regarding my school visa /sigh). But anyhow, if you refer back to the previous posts from this blog, I recorded mostly good things that has happened during the last 12 months. Whether it was foods, friends, concerts, and probably a little bit of setbacks that is inevitable.

I was able to watch not one, not two, not three, but four concerts this year. Which in one of it, I made precious new friends and memorable experience. Was also the year when I first shed tears on a concert. :)

In the rare opportunity of browsing, I found the way to live in Love  through the dailylove.com and tut.com and whole heaps of self motivate books. I love the sense of renewal living in positive brought you to. That’s one thing I’m taking to ’13 with me.

Being fortunate enough to go for Easter holiday and stepped my foot on Europe soil. Forever will remember the 3 weeks long holiday to lavish in all picture perfect sceneries.

Completed one chapter of my life by finishing internship in SingExpress Travel for one year. Truly a wonderful adventure with all it’s challenges and rewards.

Finally permed my hair on November, after all this time.

Entered the big Two this year, proudfully so.

Managed to find the way to continue my study, though it’s kind of hard to say I’m ready to go.. More on other time.

Friends. Girlfriends. Mom. Dad. Sachi & Michi. They are such a bless to be around. Mood lifter and ultimate source of joy.

Those are probably some quick round up of what’s really significant in the year. So many things I haven’t jolt down in my notes so I’m probably missing out heaps. :/ In essence, there’s a whole lot of thing to be thankful for. I’m thankful for the good and bad things that happens during this fruitful year. And I finally learn that on every day of the 366 days I open my eyes from my dream, there’s always, always, and always something to be grateful for. :)

Now, I’m home and comfortable in my bed, typing my little thoughts away tonight. I might not be able to see fireworks to start off my 2013, but it doesn’t mean my year is gonna be any less awesome! Set your mindset and look straight ahead! In a matter of minutes it’s going to be a fresh start, a fresh calendar, a fresh canvas for you to sketch whatever adventures you wish to have. :) It’s a new year!

Talk to you next year! :)

 

 

Moving On.. Next Is New.

There’s no doubting that I have lost a tiny bit discipline to write on the blog recently, and I just can’t justify why. I’ve had the greatest time for the last two/three months, so many laughters, good foods and amazing friends scurried around every day that maybe I forget a little to write things that matters. I’ve missed writing for my 2nd anniversary of living in Singapore, again too much fun with friends and Mom around. They fill my days with joys and rays of sunshine. No complaints here.

But what will happen from now on? It’s 5AM and I’m now sitting on the couch from my “home” for the last one and a half year, typing away things I think I should let out before I leave here for good. Yep. I’m leaving Singapore and going back to hometown in approximately.. 12 hours? And I haven’t got a blink of sleep. I don’t really care, though. Ha.

I finished my internship, finished my graduation ceremony, and said goodbyes to lots of places and friends. It’s getting really hard to move out of one’s comfort zone, no matter how uncomfortable it may seems like at times. I would sometimes lost the courage and sunk myself in the thoughts of  “Unable-ness”, just because I’m moving on to the next stage. The idea of what if my plans doesn’t goes along makes me numb and think of the worst situations. I’ve grown so accustomed to the life in Singapore I started to compare it to a lot of scenarios. I love this place in all its goods and bads. The pros and cons, the vibrant and bustling city life, the easiness of traveling here and there.. Oh so many things I can picture to miss a lot when I’m back home.

It’s funny that i recalled being in the same situation when I was 11, I moved from Jakarta to Medan. I’ve traveled in between the twos so I don’t really recall on which was my real home during times. So I was sitting at the plane, sticking my forehead at plane window and sobbed. The naive me asked Mom, “When I live in Jakarta, I wanted so bad to go back to Medan. But now that I’m on plane, I just want to stay here (cries) How is that possible?” I remembered Mom smiled and poked my head. She said that those feelings are called “greed”, the feeling of wanting best of both worlds in your hands and feeling satisfied when you have things your way. But you must always remember to thank God of whatever reasons that makes you want to stay in both places, don’t you think? It just proves that you enjoy your stay and you loved the experience and friends you made. So it was not something that will be gone once we took off the plane to other places. Things that you love and cherish will always resides in your heart, no matter where you are. True that, momsie.

It has been a tremendously amazing two years. It passed in a blink. It truly does. I am proud to say the last two year has been the most amazing years in my life. I matured a lot (at least I think I did), I gained a lot (it’s a given, i’m not even fighting it), I made a lot of amazing friends, I learnt heaps of things from experience and problems and I had a sip of life; living abroad and expanding my horizons in little red dot of Singapore. And I am always.always.grateful for my Dad to lend me a hand by giving me the opportunity. I’m one lucky, loved and happy daughter. :)

A lot of people asked me what’s next. What will happen after I finished the big round of adventure here. The answer is probably.. I strive for more. I kind of feel like there was not a lot of studying involved in the school that I attended. It was mostly basic lessons focused on daily manners and stuffs. Besides I graduated as a Diploma, and I figure why not just snatch the Degree while I’m still up for it? Which means I need to busy myself with lots of universities research when I’m back home. That would be my next. New chapter, new perspective; whole lot of things “new” I can’t wait to experience. So yeah, my adventure has barely ended yet. I am only starting a new canvas. Until then, I hope to still be able to update the page sooner or later. Just praying the internet works. Eeeep!

I love my life. To the tiniest, unhappy, uncomfortable and uncertain bits. And I am grateful today and hopefully tomorrows. :)

“Every moment of your life is infinitely creative and the universe is endlessly bountiful. Just put forth a clear enough request, and everything your heart desires must come to you.”
– Mahatma Gandhi

Good night. Good world.

 

 

“I Made It”

There can hardly be any title  I can think of when I wrote this post. Alright so you guessed it, I had my last day of internship yesterday. On the 17th September to be exact, but we went on a farewell dinner on the 18th.

Gosh where to start.. You know, the funny thing is that, back to several months ago when I was still struggling blood and sweats with my job I had a lot of things to write about. The pain, the lessons, the experience one after another, there was just so much to tell a story from when I thought about it. While it has all comes to the end, I have no way with words to describe the last one year in my life. But let’s try.

Imagine you are a nineteen years old, walking along with the flow of the world, finishing schools and higher education, and then comes the internship programme. The chance to taste a little bit of the real world knocked on your door, and you are to learn everything from scratch. I was scared. I was mortified by the fact that there’s so much thing I didn’t know apart from what the school taught. There are people that I didn’t know. In fact, I didn’t know anybody at all. I was alone in a new world. Sure it was challenging the first few steps, but I guess it’s as normal as it can get when you barely know anything about the industry.

Then everything settles down a bit, I gripped the handle of my job and started to function properly. Of course with errors here and there, and again I am so thankful for the individuals I worked with. Those whom I thought I will never understand what’s going on in their heads, they still help me in every way they can. There has been some bad days occasionally, sometimes I was just a big ball of an emotional wreck, and sometimes I threw my blame to the world. There was also some great time together with the colleagues, the satisfaction you feel when you do your job well, and the smile from your internal and external partners. It’s all a part of it really, and the whole internship thing allows me to improve to a better being; mind you in lots of aspects!

I don’t have any regrets from this experience. If there is I’d probably have it as not giving my best enough, not proving myself in more subjects. Days get hard and long sometimes, but I’ve learned more than just the technical process of my job, though that portrays a big part of it. I’ve also learned how to deal with lots different customers   with different demands. And boy, do I know now that expectation can be a quite troublesome idea.

When things gets rough, customers came yelling and problems revolves on a rotary basis, there was always the voice inside of me that asked me to give up and go home. It’s very easy to think so.  Sometimes it really gets that hard that you want to just slam your head to the desk in front of you. But there was also that small and clear tiny voice that tell me not to give up so soon, and by the end of the day it will all be worth it. I’d be glad I went along and gave the best, I will look back and smile to my old problems. If there were problems, there will always be solutions. If there were mistakes, there will always a way to fix things up. If there were angers in heart, there will always be patience and understanding. If there were tears, there will be just enough time to reflect, digest and wake up as a better me every day.

I worked in a service industry where I met and greet different personalities each day. I worked with fabulous people whom I now can proudly say my good friends for years to come; thanks to Facebook. How am I supposed to sum this great experience up? There are just so many thank yous and gratitude I’m feeling now that is simply so hard to type down on a post. THANK YOU for the opportunities of being a part of a great family. THANK YOU for giving myself a chance to learn things and  THANK YOU for all the patience and guidance you’ve all given me. It’s been an amazing one year, if not spectacular. I’ve created great memories and learned the most for the last year. And truly made my stay in sweet little red dot fruitful with lessons. I love my life as it is, I love it more each day, and I love it even more today because I know I’ve accomplished yet another milestone in my early heydays. :)

I’m raising my right hand, across my head and touching my back shoulder twice. Oh and I was saying “You made it.”

Best.Year.Ever.

Ps: I typed this on 4 AM, so please don’t cuss my grammar or sentence structure. I just don’t want to write this post on other days; where the amount of gratefulness I have has lessen. :)

Good night, beautiful world. Sealing another chapter of my life with fluffy ribbon.

 

#QuotesOfTheDay

30 Daily Quotes from 7th July to 7th August, doodled by yours truly.

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 Drawn using Galaxy Note “S Note” application, loaded daily to my Instagram; @Jennifrlim.

Be Inspired! <3 

*With all due respect, please credit me back to either my Instagram/Twitter/Blog if you want to use any of these doodles. :) *