21st

Well hello strangers.
I’ve been good, if having 3 months of summer break sounds appealing. I owed the lack of my proper blog post to the infamous Internet connection and a Mac that refuses to boot up and finally died on me. But still, it’s not them, it’s me.
Finally updating the space on my birthday eve to contribute to my “special day commemoration” tradition, so as to still make this blog worth to look back at once in a while. I’m kidding. Maybe.

4th of September marks the birth of moi and the day French marched on the revolution of their country. In different eras of course. When I think about the French revolutionary era, I wonder what twenty-one years do with their life. They sure as hell don’t have Internet back then, which is considerably a blessing towards their mundane activity. I wonder if they run around the fields of lavender and make romantic poetry to court a lady. And I wonder if they wonder how life would be in the next century.

To think of having so many things at our disposal these days, the way we live so conveniently and at ease, sometimes I’m not sure if there is actually anything that I’m lacking of. I may not yet figure out how I will live my life, dang, I’m still thinking of my thesis next term. But I’m grateful for the opportunity I’ve been given to study, live and experience life abroad. I may not yet found somebody to be my rock in rough times, but I’m grateful to be surrounded by flocks of wonderful friends and family. And I may not be the most intact and glorious shit in this planet, but I’m grateful for my twenty-one years of existence.
And heeey, Universe, I’m planning to stay here a little longer yeah? :)

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So yeah, I’m twenty-one and desperately single. I’m kidding. Maybe.

Happy birthday you lucky lucky one.

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Thank The Old, Greet The New

It’s the tip of 2012, and here we are evaluating and rewinding back what this year has done and brought to us. 366 days have passed so very quickly that sometimes catching up with daily happenings in life is too much of a task.. You know how if you live each day with such great friends and happy thoughts the time passed in a flash? Me think so too.

Now that the fireworks and my blackberry broadcast messages are competing against each other, I would like to try to sum up what 2012 was about for moi.

Incredibly Grateful. is probably the most apt phrase to begin with the journey to the awesomeness of 2012. To start off, I am on my happiest days of my life right now. I’m as content as I can be, without anything to worry about (except for the slight setback regarding my school visa /sigh). But anyhow, if you refer back to the previous posts from this blog, I recorded mostly good things that has happened during the last 12 months. Whether it was foods, friends, concerts, and probably a little bit of setbacks that is inevitable.

I was able to watch not one, not two, not three, but four concerts this year. Which in one of it, I made precious new friends and memorable experience. Was also the year when I first shed tears on a concert. :)

In the rare opportunity of browsing, I found the way to live in Love  through the dailylove.com and tut.com and whole heaps of self motivate books. I love the sense of renewal living in positive brought you to. That’s one thing I’m taking to ’13 with me.

Being fortunate enough to go for Easter holiday and stepped my foot on Europe soil. Forever will remember the 3 weeks long holiday to lavish in all picture perfect sceneries.

Completed one chapter of my life by finishing internship in SingExpress Travel for one year. Truly a wonderful adventure with all it’s challenges and rewards.

Finally permed my hair on November, after all this time.

Entered the big Two this year, proudfully so.

Managed to find the way to continue my study, though it’s kind of hard to say I’m ready to go.. More on other time.

Friends. Girlfriends. Mom. Dad. Sachi & Michi. They are such a bless to be around. Mood lifter and ultimate source of joy.

Those are probably some quick round up of what’s really significant in the year. So many things I haven’t jolt down in my notes so I’m probably missing out heaps. :/ In essence, there’s a whole lot of thing to be thankful for. I’m thankful for the good and bad things that happens during this fruitful year. And I finally learn that on every day of the 366 days I open my eyes from my dream, there’s always, always, and always something to be grateful for. :)

Now, I’m home and comfortable in my bed, typing my little thoughts away tonight. I might not be able to see fireworks to start off my 2013, but it doesn’t mean my year is gonna be any less awesome! Set your mindset and look straight ahead! In a matter of minutes it’s going to be a fresh start, a fresh calendar, a fresh canvas for you to sketch whatever adventures you wish to have. :) It’s a new year!

Talk to you next year! :)

 

 

Moving On.. Next Is New.

There’s no doubting that I have lost a tiny bit discipline to write on the blog recently, and I just can’t justify why. I’ve had the greatest time for the last two/three months, so many laughters, good foods and amazing friends scurried around every day that maybe I forget a little to write things that matters. I’ve missed writing for my 2nd anniversary of living in Singapore, again too much fun with friends and Mom around. They fill my days with joys and rays of sunshine. No complaints here.

But what will happen from now on? It’s 5AM and I’m now sitting on the couch from my “home” for the last one and a half year, typing away things I think I should let out before I leave here for good. Yep. I’m leaving Singapore and going back to hometown in approximately.. 12 hours? And I haven’t got a blink of sleep. I don’t really care, though. Ha.

I finished my internship, finished my graduation ceremony, and said goodbyes to lots of places and friends. It’s getting really hard to move out of one’s comfort zone, no matter how uncomfortable it may seems like at times. I would sometimes lost the courage and sunk myself in the thoughts of  “Unable-ness”, just because I’m moving on to the next stage. The idea of what if my plans doesn’t goes along makes me numb and think of the worst situations. I’ve grown so accustomed to the life in Singapore I started to compare it to a lot of scenarios. I love this place in all its goods and bads. The pros and cons, the vibrant and bustling city life, the easiness of traveling here and there.. Oh so many things I can picture to miss a lot when I’m back home.

It’s funny that i recalled being in the same situation when I was 11, I moved from Jakarta to Medan. I’ve traveled in between the twos so I don’t really recall on which was my real home during times. So I was sitting at the plane, sticking my forehead at plane window and sobbed. The naive me asked Mom, “When I live in Jakarta, I wanted so bad to go back to Medan. But now that I’m on plane, I just want to stay here (cries) How is that possible?” I remembered Mom smiled and poked my head. She said that those feelings are called “greed”, the feeling of wanting best of both worlds in your hands and feeling satisfied when you have things your way. But you must always remember to thank God of whatever reasons that makes you want to stay in both places, don’t you think? It just proves that you enjoy your stay and you loved the experience and friends you made. So it was not something that will be gone once we took off the plane to other places. Things that you love and cherish will always resides in your heart, no matter where you are. True that, momsie.

It has been a tremendously amazing two years. It passed in a blink. It truly does. I am proud to say the last two year has been the most amazing years in my life. I matured a lot (at least I think I did), I gained a lot (it’s a given, i’m not even fighting it), I made a lot of amazing friends, I learnt heaps of things from experience and problems and I had a sip of life; living abroad and expanding my horizons in little red dot of Singapore. And I am always.always.grateful for my Dad to lend me a hand by giving me the opportunity. I’m one lucky, loved and happy daughter. :)

A lot of people asked me what’s next. What will happen after I finished the big round of adventure here. The answer is probably.. I strive for more. I kind of feel like there was not a lot of studying involved in the school that I attended. It was mostly basic lessons focused on daily manners and stuffs. Besides I graduated as a Diploma, and I figure why not just snatch the Degree while I’m still up for it? Which means I need to busy myself with lots of universities research when I’m back home. That would be my next. New chapter, new perspective; whole lot of things “new” I can’t wait to experience. So yeah, my adventure has barely ended yet. I am only starting a new canvas. Until then, I hope to still be able to update the page sooner or later. Just praying the internet works. Eeeep!

I love my life. To the tiniest, unhappy, uncomfortable and uncertain bits. And I am grateful today and hopefully tomorrows. :)

“Every moment of your life is infinitely creative and the universe is endlessly bountiful. Just put forth a clear enough request, and everything your heart desires must come to you.”
– Mahatma Gandhi

Good night. Good world.

 

 

Almost There

I have exactly a month before I finish my internship. Shall this month be a memorable and fruitful month, full of celebration of life, love and celebration itself..

At the meantime, keep cooking up the pot of love and happiness I’m indulging in lately. I’m almost there.

 

-And when I’m there, I’ll go out dancing, prancing and thanking. ;o)