Breeze Away

Today was such a wonderful day. My worries were lifted one by one, and i have long never felt so at ease and relaxed. :) You know the saying that goes ” Everything is gonna be fine in time.”, now that I have experienced it myself, I truly understand what it means. It’s true, sometimes you will feel like the whole world is against you, the fingers are pointing back to your nose, and life just went to the wrong directions. I’ve been there the last week, and it was as miserable as waiting for a doctor to drill your tooth while he sipped his Starbucks. But then he finally finished his coffee and starts drilling before I know. Voila, I’m freaking done from the dental misery.

Alright, down you go problems. I’m sure we will meet again soon. Whatever, bring it on. Now December is snipping away soon, which means January is around the corner, which means Chinese New Year; read:Holiday. 3 days of holiday, I was planning to go to KL to shop away my stress or such, but there were just so many to think of; transportation, accommodation, and my way of getting around the destination. Le sigh. Can you recommend me of what to do during Chinese New Year?  Please. Need something to distract me from work, from home. I miss home so bad, miss this two huggable buddies.

Noticed that Singapore is getting really breezy and comfortable to live in lately. I can wear cardigan almost everyday without being afraid of spa-ing behind the thick knit. Wouldn’t it be bloody awesome if the weather is like this whole year round? Right.. Impossibru, and I am just being so random; catching a topic about weather . Blame the melancholy me during PMS.

Till next post and hopefully I can sum up something good about 2011/2012!

 

-2AM and should be snoring.

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Coherent.

Thursday, watched One Day. Will you spend twenty years denying your feeling and watch yourself outgrow each other? If yes, then your life might probably fit the story. Recommended  for the soul who’s in search for the perfect love-confession-encouragement. Me? I adore the artwork.

Now, so much had happened the last few months. People and troubles flying in and out of life, sometimes it gets so hectic that I can hardly breathe properly. There will always times when i feel like i’m hopelessly lost and blind in everything. At moments like thus, I try to logically push all reasons of why I should stand still and straight, and then I will actually learn to be more grateful of what I have now.

Will fly back to Medan tomorrow morning, plan is to attend the brother’s wedlock, but I take it more as a break of reality. When I come back on Sunday, snap resume life and I don’t think I will regularly update the writing. Sometimes maybe you will still find me ranting nonsense here, but not often I promise.

 

Well, wish my brother all the best for his big day. Don’t be too nervous and pressurized, bro! It’s kinda your day, not other peeps’. :)

-It doesn’t matter how slow you go, so long as you do not stop.(-Confucius) 

 

 

One away. One to go.

Hi-Ho!

I don’t know if i can still post this on 9th October 2011, but i will try.

What’s so special about 9th October 2011? Right. It’s the one year anniversary of living in Singapore. Well not the whole round year as I had some trips back to hometown. But you get the idea. Ah, where to start. I was planning to post a very long picture post about singapore, but i didn’t manage to get around enough decent images. :< Days were busy and crazy and stress-y that i don’t even have the time to think properly. So enough with the rants, and let’s reminisce.

Last year i knew nothing (read; null) about Singapore, about living abroad, and living independently. I remember this piece of advice that strengthens me when i was about to break down every time i feel life is hard.

“When people goes overseas for studying, they might assume that they will have a good time, and experience something exciting. It’s all a part of it. But in the reality, how many of them that cries in the middle of night, missing their families, friends, the familiar hometown. Living alone in other people’s country is harsh. You should really fits in quickly, and if you don’t, you get sick of living there. And when you don’t enjoy where you’re staying, you cannot possibly do anything well..Try your best and don’t give up too quick. “

That was quoted from one of my post one year ago, by a teacher.

I know life is never going to be the same again when i decided to come here and study. I had the easy life so to speak, of going to school and graduated ‘normally’. Never in my wildest dream I was to study abroad in Singapore. So when the time had come for me to set sail, I was too excited to come here that i forgot to feel sad or unhappy of leaving behind my lifestyle. Truthfully, i didn’t left my past behind me. I simply created a new fresh chapter with a brand new ink. After some time, I passed the days here in Singapore in an…carefree manner. I liked it here, whether it’s the unfriendly people i sometimes encounter, or things that just decided to go the wrong direction.Here I learn of meeting new friends, be closer with another friends, and then silently distancing, arguing with your friends or even yourself. Hanging around Orchard Road and window shops.

And there were also times when i thought of “Did I made a mistake by coming here?” “Why am I here?” “I really want to go back home and forget I ever came here.” and “I am all alone.”  It is true. I am all alone. Despite all the friends, cousins i have in singapore, i am all alone. Alone in making decisions, alone in questioning myself, alone in clouds of doubts and insecurities. But i didn’t made the wrong choice of coming here. If people were to speak of I made the wrong choice, they never know how much i learnt from living here. And if they were to know how was I one year ago and the me now, well I guess they might change their perspective a little bit. The sense of independence forced us; international students to grow strong and solid.

I’ve got used to Singapore. I hope the next year, i can post more fun things for the second anniversary. Until then, I MADE THE FIRST YEAR SAFE AND SOUND! A BIG ROUND OF APPLAUSE, PLEASE! :D

Jennifer Lim, 2010

Jennifer Lim, 2011

excuse the camwhore. too sleepy to write anything else. and tomorrow is the off day. see you guys and have a bloody monday! :D

-one round year to go, baby! 

I won’t worry my life away.

If you don’t try, you will never know.

Entering the 5th day of working, I think I’m still trying my best to learn and keep up with the new pace of life. Everything seems more organized since i work. I had regular meals, regular timetables and schedules of work for the next 2 weeks. I just wish i can have more organized bed time. (considering I am still typing this post on 1 AM when I have 11 AM shift tomorrow.)

So yesterday (23rd) i had a day off. I went to city to meet up with William, whom came here to watch Singapore Grand Prix. Had a great time at city and according to his dictionary, did some “shopping redemption”. I don’t know if it’s just me, but does having a day off work always feels so good? lol kill me if i overreacted, but i was so excited when i round about the city, that I don’t complain too much about the human traffics (read: massive loads of humans) in orchard road. Ah, if only the queues in H&M weren’t so insane..

Meow kat cropped tee. love. :)

Today i had some little complications at home. Been the happy-off-work-girl i am, i went home with such light heart and planning to prep for the next working day. Then I got off the bus, up to the flat, only to find that everything was wrecked messy. Plates unwashed, papers everywhere, couch filled with gizmos and thingamabobs of trash. I was devastated. Not the first time though, i really got smacked in the head, realizing how untidy my housemate can possibly be. Living in a rented apartment with other people, means you need to have respect in others. In every possible hygienic way. I’ve never wanted to be rude to anybody. But sometimes things gets out of control repetitiously, and it might be too hard to take on myself that i can just explode anytime. Namo Amitabha.

That was the unhappy part one. I also did something really bad today. The chronology : Whilst i was sweeping the floor, i didn’t like anything obstructing my way, so I basically put everything (floor mat, small bench, trash can) at higher place then I can utilize my “maid-mode” fully. Finished with the sweeping, i carried on with mopping. I was almost done with the last part, when i accidentally pushed the 90% filled trash can with my mop handle. Yes. Down all the way from the 8th floor to basement. I swear i heard someone cursing and i went all pale and panicked, and on top of that i decided to just abandon the poor trash can. I know, i am so irresponsible. But i am too much of a chicken to go down and swallow a nice scolding. Dear One Amber residences, if you heard / seen / felt any presence of a flying trash can on Friday, 6.30 PM at your window, yup that might be me . I am sorry for the inconvenience caused. Don’t fret, no more next time, promise.

I think that’s all. Let’s see what the rest of the week have for me.

“Grown up, and that is a terribly hard thing to do. It is much easier to skip it and go from one childhood to another.”